LOVE is so overrated!! It is an emotional theory that we as humans latch onto in order for ourselves to feel complete. Whose Damn idea was it anyway? Please do not say a higher power (whatever your religion or beliefs) either. A higher being created our emotions and our ability to display them. Some person defined it has love. Well I say to the moon with it (hell is not a good place). From my experience, it is a four letter word that means nothing without action. Romance...you do not need love to be intimate. All you need is two people filled with passion (or lust) and there is a kind of emotion flaring all over the place. Love?? NO! Many women desire that their significant other repeats this to them all the time so that they no that they have that person all to themselves and for a long period of time. Some men also crave this word because it shows that their mate cares for them in a deep way. What are we really seeking?

So in my dramatic life I have actually share deep feelings and emotions with only two men. Now when it came to the physical well...lets forget numbers. Most women hate to admit how doggish they can be or have been. I just indulged in what I wanted physically. Now maybe I wanted to fill an empty space. After experiencing both relationships it comes down to these questions for me: "Why do I have to be the one with the most emotions and pain?" "Why am I to blame for the decision people may make after the relationship has ended? Lastly, why when I become committed it is all in vain?" As a woman we are suppose to nurture and care for those we "love." It is beyond me why we cannot get out props where they are due. Many of us get with and unappreciative SOB and then have a hard time find a night and shinning armor. For me it is truly not the material things because I can get that on my own if I need to. Where is a person who can just be there for you. You always here how a relationship is give and take. Damn it I am tired of giving more than my share and not even getting half!!!! I cannot judge because of the past life or the mistakes one makes, those have nothing to do with the now and future. I worry about how things can affect me in the long run. 

People are always saying because I am young (23) that I have plenty of time. Well who is living this life. I don't want to be single for ever but after this last break up I think I might at least go for being single for a year. At least till I finish school. In the mean time I will scout out all potientials (no thugs or gangstas anymore) and narrow it down to the mister right of my dreams (he got to be a freak too)